Letter Breakdown (05/20/2012)

This letter was short. In this letter he explained that he had wrote his mother to tell her about Ariel and I. This letter was all about family, both of our families. We spoke about the concerns that my family had regarding being in a relationship with Bagherra. I only have one quote:

 

'You are an amazing woman Tinkerbell and only a blind but stupid fool wouldn’t be able to see you entirely.'

 

In life sometime we are judged upon how we look and not what we hold inside. When I began writing Bagherra I gave him a very brief description of me and there were no photos. I wanted for him to see what I held inside and not how I looked. I reached out to a man incarcerated not seeking love or a relationship, rather to be a friend to someone who could use one the most. Many times the outside world will say many of us went seeking for what we now share with our inmates when in truth we all know love just happens. People decide to be together not because of their surroundings, but because we develop feelings along the way. Feelings can only be ignored for so long before someone comes out and admits they are there. We hide in the shadows because we are afraid of being judged for writing and falling for the inmates we choose to write to. Regardless of what everyone thinks know you are not alone in this journey and many people go through something very similar to what you are now experiencing. Never be afraid of your emotions and most important never suppress them.

 

Somewhere a long the way Bagherra and I saw things changing. We started writing differently and gave into what was happening right before our eyes. We never stopped to try to prevent what was happening, instead we embraced it. We took the time to know one another, who we really were instead of judging the book by its cover. Too many people think women like me write in search of what Bagherra and I share. The truth is I never wanted this, nor expected it to happen. It wasn't like this from the start. It took time for feelings to develop and friendship was born before anything else. The decisions we have made thus far were always talked about and not rushed. We never pushed one another, nor used our feelings against one another. We just let faith take its course and we enjoyed the ride. We've never allowed others to dictate our relationship, nor get in our way. Instead we joined hands and fought together to keep what we share. We never tried to justify it or make it seem easy, we simply lived our love story without input from others. We've had our ups and our downs, yet we never forgot who we are or how we feel. When what you feel is real you will know, you will fight to the death to hold it and you will cherish it because when you are in love you know no limits, boundaries or prison walls, all you know is what you feel. Run on what you know and not what others assume. Always make yourself happy over the outsiders in your life. Only you know what is best for you and somewhere along the journey you'll find your own happiness, after all if you are not happy and others are, in no way will you learn to be happy unless you fight for your happiness.